Day116:Empty words

Flower boy next door ;
When people who dont know me judge me , i simply sweep the criticisms aside . Oh but , if i'm bored or i acknowledge their existence , i would generally give them a reaction , knowing that i will only be seen that way . But in the case of someone who knows me well -only a small group of people- begins to lash out harsh words on me , my mask breaks down right away and i will run . Hiding is a form of defence against others , however it becomes a lethal weapon on one's life . Asphasia ? It can only skyrocket from there if no one takes a peek at this fallen bud .

Day115:Serious talks

Cousin is back downunder and im glad he made it back safe and sound , hope he gets back into being who he really is after this overseas trip cause im sure he doesnt deserve all those dramatic years hes been through . Even if the whole world doesnt believe youu and i dont voice out my opinions , know that i will always believe youu and be by your side no matter what . What youve been through , it's more than enough buddy , fighting !
Well yeaahs back to the summary of the day ; twas a long and tiring day . Yeaahs it was our first day today and i got a little upset . . . well terribly emotional . During last period , chem , we were all lining up and teacher called one of the guys out of the line cause he was talking . But then called me out , reason being 'cause youu didnt talk' , oh the humour of our chem/phys einstein doppleganger . Yeahhs everyone was awkwardly smiling at me when they walked by , even shadows had that signature smirk again . Well the real reason for him to call me out of line was because of the counsellor appointment that was made from the end of last year . Well i was dragging my feet across the quad and stopped once in a while to take deep breaths and calm the anxiety inside of me . When i got there i paused for a moment before knocking thrice and being welcomed in by him . I took my seat and looked around before looking up at him . We discussed many issues ; time management , my personality , stress , social factors , just to name some . The weird thing was that i knew i was over the results issue , yet within five minutes of enterin the room , i burst into tears . The only maths result comment that was swirling around my mind was that of sir mai's . Rememberin that oh so appalling day ; im disappointed . Merely two words , can become such scarring sources . But even though i wasnt quite happy talking about such issues with a school personnel , i felt slightly relieved to get it off my chest , even if it was during those teary moments .
For only increasing the burden on my parents when i attempt to reduce it , im sorry .
For isolating myself from my friends , im sorry .
For not being able to change into someone who can fit in , im sorry .
For not being strong and crying it all out , im sorry .
For only trying my best everyday , im sorry .

Day114:Resting overs

Today is the last day of our summer 2012-13 holidays and wow ! Didn't these weeks zoom right under our noses ? :O All pumped for our final year ? Yeaah buddy , leggo ! Fighting ! Fighting ! Fighting ! :D

Day113:Every man for himself

Following from the two days that i was strong on the social issues , todayy media demonstrated it well . Was watching eps from the law of the jungle season 2 and wow am i amazed at what idols are able to handle :O Nows i really wanna go and see what it feels like to survive in the jungle , maybes for just a week -my motivation may die down really quick as youu know it- hahah (:

Day112:Last sunday nighht ~

This is the last sunday of these summer holidays . And practially the last sunday to watch a live rm ep . Sahh yeaahs its ep 130 with no guests : Reincarnation from 1938 to 2013 . Twas a refreshing ep with only the members and individual race . And how the monday couple had reincarnated to each other was such sheer entertainment (Y)

Also watched the men's singles finals in the australian open . Despite feeling the pain of andy murray , great work to novak djokovic ! Yeaahs see youu guys next year -even if its from the tv/comp screens all the way in china- well done to the staff who prepared a successful tournament and all of us fans supporting them all the way , woo ! ^^

Day111:Courts and smiles

First off , happy australia dayy ! Well there were many concepts discussed within the 'debates' in today's lesson :
Is compassion a necessity of humanity ? Communism or capitalism ? Have women reached the same platform as men in the workplace ? Has DNA research brought more positive or negative impacts to society ? Yeaahs topics youu would be willing to commence arguments on , join youu anytime :L
When guys with cutee smiles appear , i become a tad insane but manage to control myself around others , but omg ehehe Daesung , our smiling angel ^^ But yeaahs , the vlounge guy with such a cutee smile was serving today . Oh and also i was expressing my embarrassment at my friend's arguments in her debate whilst i was walking out of the door to grab a iced coffee , when i turned around to be met with an overshadowing figure . Surprised at jimm's presence i awkwardly laugh it off whilst my friend laughed at me from inside the room . He's another person with quite a smile . Beautiful smiles all around , everydayys (:

Day110:Real hero

几天前和父母一起看完了《隋唐英雄》。Absolutely amazing piece of work , truly fused history with entertainment . Watching this really sparked an interest to history and documentaries relating to events of these dynasties -my rec , please watch it (: -
Hero: A person who is admired for courage or noble qualities.
To the youu whom is my hero : other than my parents youu were the one whom i could count on , and not only depend on , but a brother who i will go all out to help . Please continue to allow your beacon of light to shine a way for me ♥

Day109:Society and flaws

Sitting in my backyard looking out into the natural world , i had realised something . It is quite a dirty world , both physically and socially . Physically dirty would obviously be because of the various pollutants . But socially . . . This dirty world that:

• discriminates against one because of one mistake
• gives way to ambition
• provides chances to all but none
• runs on the theory of 'survival of the fittest'
• recognises people as stepping stones
• looks upon media as the prophet of mass destruction
• relys on competition and revenge
• poor become poorer and the rich become richer

Our society really has many flaws .  We are becoming humanoids and living a Truman Show ; masked group of animals . Utopia ? Simply another dream not becoming reality anytime sooner .

- Humanoids by TVXQ ♪

Day108:Annyeong aegi

Shinee Hello Baby was on the list to watch for the past few days as it was difficult to fall asleep . Fallen for the cuteness of the baby , yoogeun-ah ^^ Simple chubby cutee mini minho right theres (:

Day107:Oriental nighhts

Do youu remember ? All those times we spent together ? Hahah nahhs just a few weeks , remember the moment when i fell asleep in your room ? Oh those beautiful memories i will never forget , thankyouus for steering my concentration away from that necklace and those awful memories (:

Day106:Back-to-school shopping

Gaining a little family bonding time at parra westfields as we look for back to school supplies . Looking back at those family moments made in these summer holidays , ahh (:

Day105:CodeNameBLUE - rm

CNBLUE made a special comeback stage at inkigayo todayys with 'coffee shop' and 'im sorry' , ahh missed their pleasing compositions :D
Another sunday , rm ep 129 with guests of hwang kwang hee [ZE:A] #ze:a' style , minho [SHINEE] #shawol , L [INFINITE] #inspirit , lee joon [MBLAQ] #A+ , jung yong hwa [CN BLUE] #boice , lee jong hyun [CN BLUE] , sulli [f(x)] #aff(x)tion . This winter olympic special was quite entertaining , probs cause of the guests and my interest in the winter sports .
In the first game ; kwang hee gave it a depressing start to the guest team . But L , joon , minho made a stunning turn to the game with the chaser and this is war  playing as the bg music ♥ Second game ; jihyo was an impressing goalkeeper by blocking 2 goals and jongkook's foulplaying/competiveness surfaces :L 'im sorry' plays when jonghyun scores a goal (Y) Third game ; YONGHWA , L and MINHO DAEBAK -fangirls- Fourth game ; looking cutee in those beanies , and awesome bells race . When sukjin is out , jihyo states 'race start' , hahah its back . Spartace takes out yonghwa and minho when the teams change sides . In the end , rm team won with golden nametag medals :L

Day104:Eco part two

Waking up at 6 to go to usyd once again for this economics lecture aishh . Yeaahs its helpful i guess , oh wells these two days have been used wisely . Def worth the $100 -smiles- Oh and todayys this euro guy decided to sit next to me and was slightly distracting . Hahah but good company . After the ending of this lecture , i trained it back to cabra to attend english tutor . Independence ? Yeaahs oppa its increasing thankyouus sahh sahh much (: Also i saw someone from seftclass2012 on the wayy to cabra , eheheh anton . Ahh and to end the eng lesson with a bye lil was very sweet of youu , missing those wednesdays now ):

Day103:Eco part one

6am , alarm sounds itself . Today is the first half of the economics lecture i signed up for . High hopes for the lecturers' from the prestigious schools , yet only one of the lecturers turned up . 'Notwithstanding' his verbal mistakes , the content was comprehesible . Oh and rushing random notes in our booklet ^ After that i hurried over to gloria jeans for a chiller in this 46 degree surrounding (no sunscreen , no sunnies , black jeans , dark grey suede wedges : not a great idea/burnt lil cookie) and trained it back home (:

Day102:U-kiss steakhouse horror

So whilst watching watching ep 8 of chef's kiss , i screamed and laughed along with the boys of ukiss . A game of scissors , paper , rock commenced the mission finding the recipes . Continuing the black hole curse , kibum won the first round . Himself , alexander , dongho -new al.ki.dong team- walked through the horrors first . Felt sah sorry for kevin and kiseop -love and war team- , their pitch range increased by an ocatave or two from this horror house experience ^ D; But eli and soohyun -life's miracle team- made it through in light steps and reflecting the scares back at the 'ghosts' . Awws i miss the original seven members of ukiss ):

BUT HAPPY BIRTHDAYY TO OUR KISEOP ! ♡

Day101:Mr strongheart comeback

Never knew that seung gi was a singer , always knew him as the mc for strongheart and actor of king 2 hearts and my girlfriend is a nine-tailed fox . But loving his vocals in Return (:

Day100:百战百胜

Reaching 100 days ^^ Was watcing cnblue on go show and as usual jonghwa's variety show experience surfaces . His imitations are daebak (Y) Later on , the hosts ask them to describe themselves in chinese characters . Minhyuk stated 百战百胜 , like cnblue , i also want to live up to that phrase too . Difficulty on a scale of ten : 9 :L

Day99:Music's motivation

Waking up early todays for the last of these three packed tutor days . Walking out into the garden and breathing in the refreshing morning breeze , i looked up at the framework we had built in these summer holidays . Ukiss' Binguel Bingeul played through my headphones and i suddenly wanted to exercise . Jumping up and barely reaching the top of the framework , i did a few tricep dips :L

Day98:-yawns-

Oh look at this lovely dark sky i must face today . It's sah early , didn't even sleep much last night/this morn . Door slammed open ' w a k e  u p ! ' , ne abeoji , ne eomeoni ._. Had chem first up , then bus it back home from cabra . Moment when a random provides a comment bringing laughter for moi and his friends . 'Ladies first . oh im such a gentleman' def made my day , thankyouus random guy (: Oh and as it is a sunday , rm is a must , with ep 128 for todays and catching the a moment when jaesuk's team is singing (Y)

Day97:I do I do ♥

Today , i skipped eng tutor to go to one of my second cousins' wedding . First off , congrats on wedding vee and eee wong , hope the very best for the intertwined life ahead of both of youu . The firsts in this wedding : couldn't find our seats/table , seeing the exchange of rings , signing of the marriage certificate , dancing with the bride . Dreamlike wedding attire , heartfelt speeches , stunning dancefloor moments sums up the night . And finally , thankyouus for allowing to take part on your special dayy ♥

Day96:Chef's kiss

The weather hasn't been great to us this summer , sah im just watching ukiss' variety show to prevent that smile falling to a frown . Haven't been obsessed with them since forevers , yayers to see them again (:

Day95:Fall for yoo

After watching U-Kiss' Vampire variety show ep where the members sit around a fireplace and share their experiences , the respect i have for yoo jae suk increased . Omo , hes def an amazing mc , discovered his loyalty and respect he had for others in one of the rm eps -weather report ep- , which was emphasised in maknae shin dongho's story . Hwaiting ! (:

Day94:Preppin it up

Simply blasting my last-minute-everything specialty for todayys . Nahhs just studying for physics tmrs and preparing for cousin's wedding this saturday ._.

Day93:Blink of an eye

Seeing these vines grow sah quickly is a reminder of those enjoyable times during our youth . Also a reminder of the speed of time during this very last year D;

Day92:何妨的妖孽

Mosquitoes are most annoying in summer here in downunder . Have already counted 7 , plus more to go . Why must they attack me ? They pretty much become vamps on youu too right ? ):

Day91:Cuteness overload

Hilarious moment when the pd comments on jongkook's light childish steps . Only moments later , shock , surprise , laughter once again . The guests appeared to join jihyo and gary's team ; jung yong hwa , lee jong hyun , lee gi kwang , simon dominic [busan f4] :O too much to handle ! Hahah jihyo's reaction of constant bowing in front of the camera for this lovely new year present was too natural , wouldve reacted the same way if i stepped into her shoes :L

Day90:Am i not another Rosaline ?

Due to another friend's drama rec reminder , now watching Goong . Just watching it cause ji hyo is in it , even though she's not appearing much in it . Up to ep16 , and wow (?) at the Shakespeare reference . Hyorin (ji hyo) suddenly brings up the play Romeo and Juliet in the hospital scene with lee shin (ju ji hoon) . She talks about how infatuated romeo was with his first love , rosaline . But then forgets about her after seeing juliet and just goes off with her in the end . . . Gahhs which brings me back to reality and somehow reminds me of him , knowing that he'll find his juliet in no time (he did eventually thoughs) . The problem is that this romeo comes back for rosaline instead of staying with juliet , but why wouldn't this rosaline trust him to stay this time round ? ._.

Day89:Paree cafee

Nothing like a lay back with a cup of cappuccino in one hand and a diary in the other #tgif (:

Day88:Atmospheric changes

In order to lighten up the mood from yday . . . home made garlic bread (:

Day87:The blues

Just recently , due to cancer , my uncle passed away . Today was the day for his funeral . Considering i'm not feeling all that well , in spite seeing him only a few times , i'm keeping this post short . I would not say that he is in a better place , and i know that his family will require a great amount of time to relieve the pain . Knowing that youu have brought your children up well and created a loving family , youu will be remembered . Please rest in peace uncle . And to the direct family 节哀顺变 .

Day86:2013 !

Uh oh . . . 2013 has finally hit us . . . Prepare for the worst and hope for the best , all i can do nows . Think i should study , but might go out to the city . Hmms . . . Well plans don't always work out , but mms had a great day stayin at home with the rents and just having family bonding time (: